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DEPRESSION AND PARANOIA HEALED
As far back as I can remember, even as a child surrounded by the love and care of a large and devoted family attacks of gloom or melancholy would seize me, and I would rush away from my companions into some solitary place and there spend hours of utter wretchedness. As I grew into young womanhood I became suspicious of friends, feared that they were conspiring against me and telling each other of their dislike of me. As my normal disposition was very loving this caused me many hours of such unhappiness as only those who have been so afflicted can know. Later still, while suffering from the ills from which the truth in Christian Science freed me, and for many weary years as a semi-invalid, my only comforting thought was that I could end it all as a suicide when it could no longer be borne. The faithful doctor, who very earnestly and honestly tried to cure me, finally said that another month would find me in an insane asylum, for every known remedy had been exhausted.
Instead of this, however, I now awake in the morning with a verse of Scripture or a line from one of our Leader's beautiful passages running in my thought, and turn to our loving Father-Mother God with a heart full of gratitude for all blessings, counting the blessings over one by one and each day finding yet more. I now find the hours of the day all too short for the happy thoughts and loving help one would pass along to those still in bondage which is surely to be lifted out of the darkness of despair into that peace "which passeth all understanding." Mrs. Eddy's teaching has made all this possible for me, and it is available for every sufferer in the world today. "Love," she tells us in Science and Health (p. 225), "is the liberator;" and God is Love.
Is it any wonder that I am thankful to God, the giver of all good, and to Jesus for the promise of the Comforter, also grateful to Mrs. Eddy, who has made the truth so plain to this age? I am grateful for the authorized literature, which meets always the need of the hour, for class instruction, and for the wonderful joy of helping others as I have been helped to know the truth that makes free.
Christian Science Sentinel, February 1, 1919
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